What is a Text?

A lifetime later, I still constantly wonder

what you think of me now

Everything I do and think and see is you

or something I need you to think or see with me

I read an article this morning

"Your Brain on Fiction" by Annie Paul

Which of course reminded me of Annie Hall

and I wondered if you knew what that was

or that it's my favorite movie now

What do you know about anything I do?

What were you thinking that time:
I got your old signature tattooed on my wrist
or the time I called your mother for the first time
since I’d been able to ask for you over the phone
or how about when she gave me your old clothes
and the Om symbol with Ganesh in its middle
what about when I had that God awful boyfriend
who got a one way ticket to India the day we broke up
him using your memory to get to me was so vile
but the next day I was in your real home country
what were you thinking when Anku and I giggled
much like we used to do, recalling our antics
How familiar I must have looked to you then
in the back of your mom’s SUV, grinning
How hard did you laugh when we got to dinner
and I announced my vegetarianism
and Usha said only “but you’re an American”?
because my new friends laughed pretty hard
I hope what your mother told me isn’t true
and that my tears haven’t kept you earth bound
at least not against your will....
I want only to remain your soul vacation
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